Monday, May 17, 2010

Holy Spirit

Warmth. Everyone has a way to describe the feeling- tingly, warm fuzzies, like every sense is awakened. For once, the outside is numb, while something- warmth- pours over every inside you have. Impossible things happen. Things that were embedded in you, that have made you squirm with guilt and doom, are puffs of air, completely separated from your soul. Silent fire washes you clean, a fire that instead of leaving ashes, takes them all away. All that is left is that singular warmth. Moving, floating, and then taking who you were and changing it into who you will become.

My Cornerstone

It's not a bad thing to trust other people, to trust yourself. Self-confidence isn't bad to some extent, but the term "I can do anything I put my mind to" is missing something. Society forgets that something when they send out that message: You and I are only human. If your faith and trust are in yourself or another person, and you are OK with that, ponder this- What are you going to do when the 'unbreakable' breaks? When your high ground is flooded in tears? What will you do when you or that person can't bear it anymore, when in some way or another they have to just let things slip and fall, and you find yourself with broken bones and bleeding?


I mean to break your illusion of safety. I can't imagine going back to living like that, after spending so much time being strong for no one other than myself. I've now let all the boulders I'd been holding up slide, and instead of crashing down and crushing me, I've finally let Someone catch them. No more oppression, of having to go and pick the all back up again, only to have it all return to my shoulders. Not only has the pile of rocks been lifted completely, all the dirt left over from countless times of falling has been washed clean. I can live with the knowledge that the path ahead of me has many rocks that will fall onto my pile, but none will ever have the ability to crush me.

Anyone and everyone's life can be like this. All you have to know is where, and Who, to place your trust in.